Life as it is presently

This is what I feel like:



This is what I'd like to be doing:



Or this (for fun, not school):



But the weather alternates between this:



And this:



And the weather change makes me feel like:



All I can think about is:




And how I don't have:



And that I soon won't have:



And that I'm funding this person's next family vacation (luckily mine isn't like the depiction):



Which means I don't have any:




And that starts the cycle over again because I realize I soon won't have a:



Most of my friends seem to be:



And I am among the (though I feel rather singular instead of being part a group):



And I'm not sure if I want to remain:



Or: